I have a confession to make
I am dealing with some heavy handed spenders guilt over at my house today.
I’m sure that most sane people who think of spenders guilt (and it’s cousin buyer’s remorse), only going hand-in-hand with unnecessary and/or extravagant purchases.
That isn’t the case for everyone…well, okay, it isn’t the case for me. I’m probably not the only person who falls into this category, but I kinda hope that I am, for everyone else’s sake.
This category is weird, and makes absolutely no sense.
People who spend time with Luke and I will undoubtedly hear, at one time or another, Luke described as the spender. I, on the other hand, am the saver (or as I have been mentally referring to myself as lately: the crazy cling-to-the-money-so-hard-it-risks-disintegrating) person.
I don’t feel like I was always this person, but here we are.
Today’s battle started with a well-researched decision that was enacted yesterday: getting our baby a new car seat.
We had a list of reasons (all of them valid) for moving her out of her infant seat, and into a convertible seat that will last her through the majority of her remaining car seat/booster years.
Mama’s out there, I know you must be feeling my pain as you see where this is going.
Car seats are crazy expensive!
I did as much research as my brain could possibly process, and found a seat that would fit our criteria, and was within a reasonable budget.
Even better? When I went to purchase it, it was on sale for almost $40 off!
I also had been wrestling with purchasing a new diaper bag. I really fought over whether it was a want or a need, but the old one was bursting at the seams, and still wasn’t quite holding everything I wanted to take with me. (Big shout-out to Graco’s backpack diaper bag though, it was awesome until I started cloth diapering. They take up a lot more space than ‘sposies’.)
Since I was in the store and could test out some that I’ve been looking at online, we decided it was time to bite the bullet on that too.
A car seat, and a diaper bag (which was 20% off). In one fell swoop I felt horribly uncertain, and started doubting the purchases in line before I had even paid.
I seriously wonder sometimes how Luke puts up with me.
He was sure, and confident in this joint decision we had made.
I was also confident, until it came time to part with the money itself.
I think a time (or times) can come in a person’s life that can, if not kept in check, take an otherwise good quality and begin to corrupt it.
It isn’t that I didn’t want to make these purchases (with money that had actually been purposefully set aside), but that I was afraid of what could or would happen after that extra layer of bank account safety net was gone.
What if “insert realistic worst-case-scenario here”?
What if “insert even worse and completely unrealistic worst-case-scenario here”?
I will never encourage or perpetuate spending money you don’t have, or buying things you can’t afford. It is unwise, and poor stewardship.
However, on the off chance there are others like me, I just want to put out this reminder: some things are okay to spend money on. Some things are items that are just big ticket items. You plan for them, you save for them, and when the time comes to purchase, you rejoice in the fact that God blessed you with the ability to buy them. How ungrateful an attitude do I have that I’m more concerned with the ‘less’ in the bank, than with the ‘bless’-ing that God made sure we had the money for this purchase available when we needed it?
31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
– Matthew 6:31-34